Ana Ivanovic lost to Justine Henin in the Roland Garros women's tennis final. She lost real bad. It was so painful to watch, seeing as how she went down without a fight. The match didn't look like a championship game. So sad, I was rooting for her pa naman. Sayang. :( At least she beat Sharapova. I mean, Sharapova's good...but, really, can she get any more vain?

***

I haven't been able to sleep that well these past few days. I find myself staring at the ceiling, thinking about so many random things, and worrying about what I'm doing with my life. (Could this be a quarter-life crisis? Hahaha.) I like to think that I'm right on track and that I know what I want. But sometimes, I can't help but think that maybe I'm just trying to prove something to myself. I can't help but think that maybe I'm not built for all this pressure. Sometimes I just ask myself  "Is this it? Is this my life?" I just thought that, at this point, I'd have it all  figured out. I thought I'd be wiser by now. But, who am I kidding? I was never good at making deadlines and keeping resolutions. All I have are plans. Way too many plans.

I cant remember the last time I was able to stay at home and do nothing the entire day but pig out and stalk people online. It's the best. :D

***

Abet's celebrating her birthday on Saturday at Ponti in Makati. I haven't gone out with my barkada in a while. Except Nikki, of course, who I'm with 24/7. Haha, I even borrowed bedsheets from her, which I left at the Blue Eagle Gym. Yeah.Don't ask. Anyway, I really really hope I can go on Saturday, so I can ppaaarrrtyyy the night away... :D Ok. I miss Zobel all of a sudden. Waaahh. Speaking of nostalgia, i miss miss miss my soulmate!!! I got to chat with her in YM this morning, which is pretty rare coz we're never really online at the same time coz of the time difference. So I'll remember to go online in the morning now so I can talk to her more often. Which reminds me, I have to stop by her house here in the village and get something she got for me. Can't wait to see what it is. :D

***

I'm chatting with Abby. :) I haven't seen the FE people for quite some time now, since I didn't go the thing last weekend coz of my game in UP. And I didn't go to my game today coz I woke up feeling pretty shitty. I blame the weather and my messed up body clock. Anyway, yeah, I haven't been going to FE gatherings in a while, and I also haven't gone to mass in 2 weeks. I feel evil.

***

This week's the third week of AIESEC Internship Tasks, and our task is to throw a party for Iara, the AIESEC UP-D President. Anyway, our group's in charge of the games. AJ came up with the ideas for the games and I love them coz they're so cute! I dunno if cute's the right word though. Actually, I know cute's not the right word. More like erotic. Especially the Trip to Jerusalem with a twist. Hahaha. ;D

Yay! I'm home! I haven't been home on a Tuesday for quite some time. It feels sooo good to lie on my soft soft mattress and not worry about mice popping out of nowhere, scaring the shit out of me. (Kinain nung daga yung monay ko sa boarding house kanina! I still can't get over that. Grr.) And the best part about being home on a weekday? Free meals!! :D

***

A lot has happened these past few days. Both my sisters lost their phones. Chiara left hers in the tricycle while she was out with friends, and Sab got mugged in the Ikot jeep by some guy who I hope will go to hell. Anyway, it turned out to be a good thing for them coz they're both getting new phones. Nice ones pa coz my dad's feeling pretty generous lately. (Boo...I want a new phone too!) Oh, Ricoy also lost his phone last Friday while riding a jeep. The snatcher had a whole strategy pa. It's the strangest thing I've ever seen. We're happy to show anyone who wants a demo. Haha. ;)  

***

Oh yeah, I witnessed the Oblation Run yesterday. APO did it in protest of a statement made by Raul Gonzales about UP-D being a breeding ground for rebels and activists, and how UP students are just wasting the government's money. Okay. First of all, only 1 percent of UP students are involved in activism, so I don't think it's right to generalize the entire student population as activists. And second, have you seen our campus lately? The government's budget is not even enough to supply every classroom with chalk. If anything, the government's not "wasting" enough money on us... Aryt I better stop before I get ahead of myself. Haha. But don't think I'm gonna be joining em rebels anytime soon. I actually don't see the rationality behind the Oblation Run and all the other things they're doing. When you think about it, they're just proving Raul Gonzales' point.

So anyway, there were lots of local stations televising the "event". And what was really annoying was that the cameras really wanted to capture the "audience"'s reactions. We had to hide everytime a cameraman would aim his camera in our direction, which, I must say, was pretty impossible since we were in the front row. Haha. My mom even said she saw me on TV! It was so embarrassing... She was like, "Ikaw ah...Anong ginagawa mo dun?" Awkward moment. Followed by a fake laugh. What do I answer to that? I didn't really look anyway. At first it was funny, then funny turned into disgusting, and disgusting turned into reeeally disgusting. XP Just when we were about to leave, we ran into Mik who was having a hotdog sandwich for lunch. Haha. ;p    

***

Mike and I had our 29th monthsary yesterday. :) Yesss, I know how weird that sounds. We're still counting by months. We've just gotten accustomed to it, I guess. Can't wait for our 36th. :D

***

Okay, this is just a completely random thought. I don't even know why I'm thinking about it. But I just have to lay it out somehow so I can see how silly it is and I won't think about it anymore. So anyway...Something that happened yesterday bothered me a little bit. Just a little bit. I want to think that there's nothing there, that there's nothing going on, but I can't deny what I felt when I saw them. I haven't felt that in a while. I forgot how much it hurt. But something tells me there's nothing to worry about. So I'm just gonna brush this off. I really hope I'm right. 

This is it.